Time to write my own rule book

I’ve put this off so long.

Starting that is.

Or more accurately, hitting ‘publish’. 

Why?

Because I told myself that I needed order. To have a plan. 

But that’s just another rule.

Do it this way. Organise it like this. 

Make sure you take people on a journey. 

Be clear.

SO MANY RULES.

No wonder I get tired. 

My poor head is so so full with all these rules.

I’ve been mistaking these rules for safety. 

A belief that if I do it that way then all will be well in the world. My world. 

But today I start writing my own rules. 

Rules that energise me not drain me. 

I start messy.